It's about plans. It's about control. AND it's about letting go of those. I am NOT good at that. Not at all. But. The progress is that I'm getting better at it. Maybe?
Yesterday God got my attention and "we" sat myself down and had a little conversation. "Okay, you want "this" to happen." "Yes." "Do you think it's going to?" "No. :((" "Is it the end of the world if it doesn't?" "Ummm.... no. Not really. But I WANT it to!!" "Are you going to let it ruin the week and your joy?" ??? ???? "Mmmno."
So, today my thoughts started going a little wild again. (Why yes, I AM hard-headed.) I decided to be practical about it. I looked at the calendar. I looked at my real deadline. To my surprise there was no rush. My agenda didn't need to take place this week. Everything can be pushed back a week and we're still good. That was such a relief for me.
And the other part. The REASON my agenda had to be pushed aside is actually a huge blessing. What is taking the time
I'm so thankful for the huge answer to prayer that is taking place this week. Thank you, God. Even when I don't seem so thankful You bless me.